today

am i smiling today?
someone should tell me cause i feel a bit numb
is that a dent showing between my brows
its there when i have been thinking too hard, too often
dont make that face too long or it will stick
am i smiling today?
i cannot tell because my mind is floating somewhere else
not sure where to go
i've been sidelined for so long
that i dont recognize me
am i smiling today?
it doesnt feel like i am either here nor there
cant mind the center anywhere
feel old, feel young,
feel like i forgot how to be in this moment
am i smiling today?

insides

this empty stomach
creature seems to be chomping on my insides
relentlessly
restlessly
legs havent felt normal in days
sometimes they are missing from the knees down
as if a broken heart can stop circulation
the only working pieces seem to be the waterworks
guess they are broken too
cant seem to stop them from leaking
my lungs are an empty cage, rattling

jigsaw puzzle piece girl

jigsaw puzzle piece girl
missing hands to hold him
missing heart to love him
put the edges together
find the empty spaces
pieces scattered through the town

whisper all your secrets
she will never tell her mouth is silent
scared to speak the words
her eyes will hide them all inside

jigsaw puzzle piece girl
missing hands to hold him
missing heart to love him
put the edges together
find the empty spaces
pieces scattered through the town

she paints pretty pictures
from her dripping heart worn on her sleeve
her disposable feelings
and I cannot make her smile

jigsaw puzzle piece girl
pieces scattered through the town
jigsaw puzzle piece girl
pieces scattered through the town