busted proximity and the after effects

My heart sunk
yet opened
screaming
obscenities
silently
simultaneously
I stood and watched
your proximity
shift
the world spinning
around me
your face the center
from where
centripetal energy
stems from
anger like that
not in years
face red
had to get away
from the walls
of my vivid imagination
closing in
all around me
your proximity
and breathing
undeniable
that the negative space
between you was
less than average
in such an average
place such
as that
far too close
standing to a
smiling face
making my guts lurch
your proximity
to that girl
whose
face isnt
mine